Thursday, March 15, 2007
Okay. Whatever that you see here from the next paragraph onwards is meant for only one person, but yes, you people can read it too if you want.
_____, I'm really really very irritated by your behaviour, blog posts and all. I really dont understand why these kind of words would come out of your mouth. Although I havent seen you in a long time, but I'm still pretty sure that I love you all the same and treat you like a bestie, a sister. I can feel the distance between the both of us increasing as the days go by.
Why cant you understand that there are so many people that you can call, talk to in your times of need? When you are depressed, you always forget that there is this group of friends that will never pang seh you, no matter how long you've disappeared from church. You also forget that God is always there for you, and ultimately you decide whether you want Him in your life or not. I really cannot believe that you are at this stage of life now.
I never opposed to your relationships, but I never encouraged and approved of them either. As your friend, I believe I do have the right to understand you, but not approve of what you do. In actual fact, I didnt approve because I was afraid and apprehensive that you would end up in exactly this stage that you are in now. This horrible pathetic stage. I believe that healthy BGRs should only happen when you are mentally and emotionally mature enough, and I thought you had the same thoughts as me too. Until that day that I found out you had a bf.
I am getting so frustrated that I cant concentrate on my jian bao. But who cares. I need to vent.
Maybe it's due to your rebelling that you decided to do this. I agree that your parents arent exactly the best ones that you can have, but you as a daughter must learn to appreciate them. I know I should be practising what I preach, and the thing is, I'm trying to. When I saw photos of you two together in the beginning, I was pretty convinced that you were happy the way you were then. But now, I really regret putting most of my trust in that guy.
Oh man, I'm becoming more like a mother hen. But you dont know how worried I get when I read your blog. Your posts are full of depressing words that I dont even want to read. You're just ruining your life like this. Counting the number of days that he has left you? That is maybe one of the most childish things that is in my dictionary. Why not you count the number of friends you have that actually love you like you're our one and only? Why not you think of how many people that treat you like you're special? Why not you count how many days there are to the next time you see us? Why not?
If you do really read this, I suggest that you go and reflect. I highly encourage you to come back to church. This is where all your friends are. This is where all the love is. We all love you like there's nothing else to love. Really.
See the beautiful night sky? It's filled with our never-ending love for you. God loves you even more than what the universe could hold. <333
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On a brighter and lighter note, I realised my blogskin is really darn pink! I shall go look for a NOT SO PINK one! XD
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